The Delighted Mind

I woke myself up the other night laughing at something in a dream. I mean really laughing, stomach muscle involvement laughing. It’s stayed with me all week – not the dream, that fled immediately, leaving only the vaguest vestige of an innocuous looking pigeon – but the feeling of delight in my own mind. That I can, in my most unguarded moments, be utterly unburdened and able to enjoy the simplicity of the mind at play. It strikes me that this is to be treasured as one treasures those moments of joy or hilarity with a friend, for the feeling of fondness toward myself quickly dissipated along with the dream, becoming replaced by the old familiar self-critique. Elizabeth Gilbert speaks of practising ‘stewardship’ towards oneself, an idea so enormous and beautiful that I dropped a saucepan in my excitement upon first encountering it, but have since not known what to do with, holding it in my outstretched palm like a sweet yet timid little bird that is liable to expire at any mome...